Not Coping

[Blackbird11]

Not very fit though @Birdofparadise8 

Working my way back, after gaining weight on medication 😕

[Birdofparadise8]

You and me both. However, diet is as well, lol, for me. My mojo right now is not about weight loss but about building sustainable habits and building muscle. It was because I was using food as a way to control myself because those months were probably the worst for me (depression and SI). Anyway, I'm back on the fitness journey. Yes, I would like the scales to go down, but I won't be as disappointed as before. If I didn't lose weight the next day, I would eat way less. Now I'm focusing on the muscle, so even if I lose "fat", I might stay the same or similar weight if I've built muscle. Let's just hope if I start again, I won't go back to that restriction mindset. I have been worried about that for a couple of months and why I didn't want to start. I'm also not following a diet; I'm just trying to eat as balanced a diet as possible while still enjoying myself. 

Anyway, that was a really length explanation. 

I also emotionally eat as well. 

Ahh, I don't know why, but a few minutes before you replied, I started crying and I don't even know why. I can't stop. @Blackbird11 

[Birdofparadise8]

I must have said something wrong, @Blackbird11 

My posts keep disappearing. 

[Blackbird11]

I'm not sure @Birdofparadise8. we're here for you, be gentle with yourself.

 

[Birdofparadise8]

Thank you @Blackbird11 

My ultimate goal is to become the best and healthiest version of myself. (Is that okay to say or not?) 

What are you doing tonight?

[Birdofparadise8]

That () wasn't directed to you @Blackbird11 sorry. 

[Blackbird11]

It's a great goal @Birdofparadise8.

I'm going out for fish n chips tonight... not the best thing for healthy eating though. It's ok to be relaxed and not put too much pressure on. 

[Birdofparadise8]

Yum sounds good. My favourite food is chocolate, ice cream, and desserts. Ahh, so good. 

I do love a good fish and chips. Have you been to the one near the airport? They are really good. 

I'm just having a post-workout smoothie. Chocolate (cocoa powder) and banana with some other stuff. Not feeling very hungry yet, so this might be enough. 

What are you watching on TV I need a new show to watch. @Blackbird11 

[Blackbird11]

No I haven't,  I'll have to check it out @Birdofparadise8 

Smoothie sounds yummy 😋 

I don't watch much TV. Have you ever watched Beauty and the Geek?

[Birdofparadise8]

Oh gosh no, I'm not into reality tv sorry @Blackbird11 

I just googled it. Yeah it's nice I wish I had some ice to make it cold, but sadly I don't. 

Are you going out with your GF?