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21-09-2021 12:13 PM
21-09-2021 12:13 PM
Re: A safe place to express myself
With all the amazing posts here, I don't think I've got anymore to add @Arizona !
I don't have a special someone in my life either. We're together on this one! As much as I'd like someone, I'm not sure it's for me. Time is ticking, and I'm sort of 'stuck in my ways' (so to speak). So, I guess for the time being, I am grateful for the time I can be alone, knowing that this may change without warning.
I'll keep you in the loop @Arizona !
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21-09-2021 12:42 PM - edited 21-09-2021 06:18 PM
21-09-2021 12:42 PM - edited 21-09-2021 06:18 PM
Re: A safe place to express myself
Hello @BPDSurvivor @Spirit_Healer @Appleblossom @Dimity . Thank you for your kindness ❤
@Appleblossom You are very lucky to have an education. That would have been my dream. I wasn't able to finish my Arts degree. I studied English, Psychology, Linguistics and Spanish. I was in the top 5% with my marks and I was offered a mentorship program with a lecturer of my choice. I chose the head of Linguistics. I could have had an academic career.
Also, while I was at uni I met quite a few women lecturers who had overcome depression to have an academic career. The head of Linguistics was one of them.
I admire Patti Smith as a woman and artist but I don't really like her music. It's not my thing.
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21-09-2021 12:49 PM
21-09-2021 12:49 PM
Re: A safe place to express myself
I can empathise with you about what it's like to be an educated, yet lonely woman.
I also studied Linguistics at uni...it taught me to never underestimate the power of language...
And so: here are some quotes, hopefully they get you through next time the going gets tough:
"I am powerful and I love it!"
"I peacefully allow my life to unfold"
"I relax knowing I can handle it all"
...famous quotes from 'Feel the fear and do it anyway' by Susan Jeffers, PhD in Psychology. If you're ever feeling anxious, I highly recommend this read!
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21-09-2021 01:11 PM
21-09-2021 01:11 PM
Re: A safe place to express myself
Thanks for expressing your feelings here. I can identify.
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21-09-2021 07:08 PM
21-09-2021 07:08 PM
Re: A safe place to express myself
I really like
Looking out my window
Watching the sky change
From day to night
It tunes me in
To the coming night time
I much prefer night time
It makes me feel safe
I'm watching it now
It is so calming
As the light fades
And the sounds fade
Soon the sky will be dark
The stars will come out
It will be so quiet
And peaceful
I love quiet
I really treasure it
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22-09-2021 04:00 AM
22-09-2021 04:00 AM
Re: A safe place to express myself
I just woke up and had a hypnopompic hallucination where I saw a large spider crawling down the wall. This has happened to me many times before. I wonder why I always see (usually large) spiders when I have hypnopompic hallucinations? For a moment I think it is real and it scares the shit out of me.
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22-09-2021 01:47 PM
22-09-2021 01:47 PM
Re: A safe place to express myself
What is going on for me today...
1. My anxiety is very bad today. I can feel it in my chest and solar plexus area. It is very intense.
2. Lately I can't write or express myself like I usually can. I don't know why.
3. I watched a video of Thich Nhat Hanh talking about loneliness last night. It was very helpful.
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22-09-2021 02:57 PM
22-09-2021 02:57 PM
Re: A safe place to express myself
I just did a 10 minute meditation for anxiety and panic attacks. It was difficult but I did it. My whole body is wound up and my thoughts are intrusive.
I will try to meditate again later tonight.
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22-09-2021 04:53 PM - edited 24-09-2021 01:31 AM
22-09-2021 04:53 PM - edited 24-09-2021 01:31 AM
Re: A safe place to express myself
I'm so grateful to be in my bed with my Pug and my hot water bottle under my feet. I'm going to sleep now. It's been a rough day.
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24-09-2021 02:10 AM
24-09-2021 02:10 AM
Re: A safe place to express myself
I'm in a really bad mood
I don't know why
I feel angry and frustrated
I'm probably angry and frustrated with my life
I can't get in touch with my feelings
I can't connect with myself
I feel like there's no point in even writing
I feel like there's no point in doing anything
I feel hopeless, apathetic, defeated
I have no energy
I have no interest in life
I have no passion for anything
I can't write or express myself like I usually can.