Living with Ourselves

[Zoe7]

Letting you know I am still listening and still here with you. You can only do whst you are capable of doing at this time @Sophia1 and that is enough 

[Sophia1]

Hello @Zoe7

Thank you for kindness..

am struggling accepting help still...have had to be there for self for most of my life..

my husband has been very good..doing so much...it has been a great strain on him with house on market as well....

witnessing my medical ups and downs too..

I am very much on the alert to the carer aspect..so am as independent as I can be at moment..

still need shopping..cooking..washing ..housework (have to be careful with this one as he is untidy)...

I me.ntioned again the other day..out of the blue..how very much I truly appreciate everything that he is doing for me..for us...He was very grateful and thanked me..

of course this adds to my emotional roller coaster....

saw gp yesterday..he was beaming and very proud that I have been off all painkillers for a week now..continuing pool..so can continue to use prn ..paracetamol normal strength on pool days...

no pain no gain..

am in a hurry for end of June to get here..then am apparently starting rehab stage..

enough about me..

how are you at moment?

have your headaches and other physical illness cleared up yet? Off antibiotics?

you are certainly sounding as though you have turned a corner...with a part of your recovery...so congratulations...

[Sophia1]

Hello @eth

the time has finally arrived..

you are nearly ready to start off on the first part of your trip..

I wish for you something special to remember on each part of the journey and your holiday..

all the best.. Enjoy..

ps. Thank you for all of your kind words and support xx🌷💝🌹

[Zoe7]

You have had so much to deal with @Sophia1 but those small wins are great 

I think most of us struggle to accept help at different stages - I certainly have - think that is the difference between knowing we need help and refusing to accept that we deserve it - one of those things that often go along with MI at times - maybe that is also a refusal to accept that we are unwell at times also!

So pleased to hear you husband acknowledged you kind words to him - it makes a difference when our gratitude is accepted with such.

I wish the days come and go quickly for you and the end of June and the rehab stage come along quickly. It will be tough for you but very much needed. You are being so strong through all the pain and I have real admiration for how you are coping 

I am off antibiotiucs now and my chest infection has mostly cleared up - still a little tickle ocassionally and a few coughs but the fever and breathing difficulties have gone. My stomach pain is still hanging around but not as severe as it has been the last 2 days so that is a win also.

I feel mentally I am able to cope with things a little better - I still have my moments or days when I don't think I can do this anymore but I am getting through them!

I don't have DBT this week and I think that has helped my anxiety - it is something I need to try to perservere with and hope it gets easier as I become more comfortable in the group situation. I have my pdoc appointment still today and I need to talk to her about a few things - just hoping I can keep it together enough to do that. I will keep you informed on how it goes.

I hope there is a little light in your day today @Sophia1 and remember we can only do what we can do and that is enough 

[Sophia1]

Good morning @outlander

are you alright?

Are you still in your car?

I read that you have several appointments...becomes a nightmare I understand..

your hand is swollen and that is worrying you....aside from everything else that you are dealing with..

I think that you are seeing hand specialist today?

no need to respond now..rest and regain your natural breathing..

get through appointments if you can..

when all dealt with..when you are feeling more settled..find one thread on here and stay on that one whilst you allow yoursel some self-care...you Can respond and tag those you want to in one response from one place...can be brief..d

resting hand and you most important now..

as you tell so many of us  beautiful outlander..

💚💜♥️🌷🌹💐 I can't match yours xx

[Sophia1]

@Zoe7

a very positive response...am proud of how far you have come..

yes self denial does go hand in hand with mental unwellness..

accepting help from others..accepting needing help in the first place takes much courage..especially when long term..

not sure of your diagnosis..I know trauma in there..

dbt only helps certain diagnoses...if is beneficial for you that is good news..also group therapy can be a little daunting especially after isolating..

good luck with appointment ..bringing up important stuff..

I have one this afternoon..same..important stuff continuing from other day..I make a list sometimes if anxious or confused..

take care and thank you again for listening..also taking time to read my epics laugh..💜🌹🌷

[Zoe7]

Thank you @Sophia1 - that means a lot to me 

Diagnosis is major depression, complex PTSD and anxiety.. depression seems to be getting better although very slowly as does anxiety but PTSD is still a major thing for me - flashbacks and nightmares have lessened but are still a major thing I grapple with most days 

It is being in a group situation that is the biggest problem - I much prefer the isolation - always have done. The skills themselves are not a drama - it is dealing with 'people' that is. I have begun to 'talk' a little but there are times when anxiety takes over and words just won't come out - hoping that will improve as I go on.

Goodluck with your appointment - seems like we both may have a tricky afternoon. I will definitley let you know how mine goes.

Take care @Sophia1 look forward to your next epic 

[outlander]

Hi @Sophia1

I have quite alot of appointments coming up but have managed to spread them ou abit. Ive got my hand specialist abit later this afternoon so will talk to her about the swelling and added pain ive been having. The swelling is concerning as it went down but its back up again. Hopefully she can help with that might just need some compression bandaging for a few days again...

Ive been sticking to just a few threads. I feel guilty over that but its self care and is a must. Just as your doing. ❤


I think @Zoe7 has just covered everything nicely about whats happening for you. I dont have anything else to add to that except that i agree with her. You really are couragous and an admiration (so are you Zoe dealing with everything you do) ❤❤


Hugs to you both
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🌸🌹🌺🌻🌼🌷⚘🌱

[Sophia1]

@Zoe7

You epic appointment booked for later....

.that cheeky side of me just stirred...must have felt the wings of the butterfly brush by..

no need respond now..

[Zoe7]

laughing now @Sophia1