Not Coping

[Birdofparadise8]

I know, right? I will, lol.

Eh, not really. I don't get why I'm like this. I feel pathetic right now that all I do on here is complain about how sad I am and why I'm crying when I don't have anything to cry about.

Anyway, don't worry about it. Now I'm complaining about complaining. 

Sorry @Blackbird11 

[bartart23]

Lol @Jynx  I wouldn't expect you to tell me to do anything illegal   I know how to get myself back in I won't be out it would be 6 years or life in there  the judge don't care  him and my ex are ganging up on me 

Nothing really helps with seeing things or the little girl   

I'm so numb   

I remember I am just a money and sex for them 

Yes I am heartless   

I wouldn't worry to much about me or my safety haha  JJ is talking 

[Jynx]

Pretty rough times for you @bartart23 - is there anything nice you could do for yourself this afternoon, some self-care or something soothing? 

[Blackbird11]

We're here for you @Birdofparadise8 

It's ok, be gentle with yourself 

You matter, you are respected and you are loved

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 yay Qantas! At least they are a little bit more comfortable and you'll get food and drinks! 

Perhaps the emotion is because of the upcoming trip. I used to get triggered by the smallest things and flying home for what will be a heavy going event is no small thing. Do you feel better after crying? 

If I find out about the cooling pads I'll let you know. It's no fun trying to sleep without air conditioning is it. 

I hope everything goes smoothly with your parents. 

My dad sent me a message saying he'd be spending Christmas all alone because his stepdaughter is taking his wife out for lunch. I said that was pretty crappy not to include you and called her a miserable bitch, just like her mother. I should learn to shut up because of course my dad came back at me saying it was his choice to spend it alone. Why the heck make it sound like you're all alone then?! 

@Jynx glad you're doing okay. Aside from the heat and the fuster cluck that is my relationship with my father I'm all right. 

[bartart23]

Hi @Jynx  I am playing gta 5 and music on loud but it's not working and  why does safety matter 

Fyi JJ is one of the voices there lots of voices

Bye 

[Birdofparadise8]

Aww @Blackbird11 
You're too kind. 

I'm not sure if it is because I've been crying a bit here and there the past few weeks, and I do not know why. No definitely not. Thank you, that would be great. Yeah, so do I. 

Hmmm, that's a bit odd to do. He doesn't sound very nice if he calls them those words. @ENKELI 

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 I'm the one who calls his wife and stepdaughter the miserable bitches. This is his 3rd wife, my mum was number 1. She is a sad horrible woman and nobody likes her because of the way she treats everyone. When my dads' mum was close to passing on his sister called him to tell him to come over to WA so he could see her before she went. The wife said they couldn't because they were getting the kitchen renovated, and besides they'd only have to fly over again for the funeral so why waste the money. She hates me because of something that happened over 20 years ago and had nothing to do with her. I've tried over the years but I don't bother now. Her daughter is just like her.

And like @Blackbird11 said, you are not annoying and complaining. If we can't voice our feelings here then where can we? I admire your strength @Birdofparadise8, you're only young and living away from home. There are plenty of people who would be scared witless to move to another state to study. 

[Birdofparadise8]

Gosh that sounds very complicated @ENKELI 

I'm not really sure what to say. I hope you're okay with how messy it seems. 

Thank you. That is true. I just don't want to be needy or something. 

[bartart23]

I'm I failed everyone 😭 please forgive me