@Re: not feeling good

[Molliex]

Good job @BlueBay . I hope you're feeling a bit better x

[Shaz51]

well done my awesome sister @BlueBay 

[BlueBay]

@Shaz51 @Molliex @Owlunar @Gazza75 @Zoe7 @MDT  @Maggie snd others I have forgotten 

Well tiday is a better day. I walked 3km to the town along the beach. So so beautiful. Hubby picked me up and we did our grocery shopping. Home now to tidy up a bit.  Hang washing out. Put shopping away which I hate. 

Then I am going to the beach and just sit. Msybe my D will come eith A so we splash in the water and make sand castles.  My son is down this arvo for dinner. 

So far so good. Oh I bumped into my Chiro on my walk. He told me thst walking 3 days a week for 30min reduces your depression by 50%. 

Thsts a massive reduction.  No wonder I felt terrible for not walking for a few days. 

So overall a good day so for 

hope you are all having an ok day. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[BlueBay]

Hi @Shaz51 @Molliex @Owlunar @Gazza75 @Zoe7 @MDT  @Razzle  @Former-Member  

@Faith-and-Hope @Maggie  and others following 

Yesterday was such a beautiful thst hubby and I went down the beach and just sat. It was really nice. My d and a didn’t come. Got a bit of sunburn. 

This morning I went for my long walk. It was warm already at 8am. 

My d and her partner have applied for two rentals.  I hope they get one. I think I’ve had enough of all these people at home. Don’t get me wrong I so love my daughter and granddaughter but it’s time they have their space and routine. And We get our space again. I think at the moment I just need some peace and quiet. 

Im off to work soon then my dietitian appt this afternoon. 

I hope you all have a nice day. Take care my friends ❤️❤️❤️

[Gazza75]

Well done on the walk already @BlueBay .

I'm glad you had a nice day with your husband and great that you have some time right now.  I hope the sunburn isn't to bad, that after sun stuff works a treat if its uncomfortable.

Fingers crossed your daughter gets a rental soon, it's understandable that you need  your own space.  

Have a good day BB, its really nice to hear from you and that you are holding up.  🙂 

[Former-Member]

Morning @BlueBay  ... you are doing so well, and have managed to turn things around quite quickly this time. Great to see that you have started back into your regular walks.  If you get out of the routine, its so hard to get back into it again.  I had been going regularly to weekly pilates classes, until my Mum got so sick and then died in July.  I havent had the inclination or motivation to go back since then.  So I really commend you for being so strong and getting back to your routine.  This dietician has been really good for you it seems, in all aspects of your wellbeing ... physical, emotional and mental.  How is your MIL going?  I read that sustenance has been ceased.  She wont suffer for much longer in that case.  Nor will you.  The waiting is so hard, because in all intents and purposes you are already grieving.  But you cant do so properly until the time has actually come.  So so hard for you and your hubby.  Gotta say that you're doing well also to have maintained your regular work routine, despite all thats been going on. I hope too that your D and her partner get one of the rentals they have applied for.  It will make a huge difference to you all.

You really are an inspiration BlueBay.  Oh ... nearly forgot ... have you heard anything back at all re your job application?  Hope your work day goes smoothly.  

Sherry 💕

[Molliex]

Proud of all the effort you have been making @BlueBay . You are doing so well x

Hoping for positive outcomes for the rental applications.

[Maggie]

@BlueBay  Well done. Hope everything works out best for everyone. 💕💜💕

[BlueBay]

Hi @Gazza75 @Former-Member @Molliex @Maggie @Shaz51  @Owlunar @MDT  @Former-Member  

@Faith-and-Hope and 

 others following 

I saw my dietitian. We talked about last week and how I wasn’t coping. He wrote down all the days I was emotional and angry. He also wrote down all the days I ate excessively. I then told him that when I ate something I shouldn’t have I had to go fir an extra walk to make me feel ok thst I had extra food. 

I told him that last week I was very angry and wanted to see if there were any results from my eating. There wasn’t any chsnge. I was so angry thst I lost it for days. 

He listened and said it was the thing thst I used to see if there was a chxnge of measurement that triggered me to end up with excessively eat. 

Snd also the no walking for 5 days. 

He wants me to understand the relationship I have with food. 

He insists quite strongly that meal replacement are dangerous for me. Snd  he wouldn’t approve me going thst way. He said I would fail the criteria as I have an ED. 

Im not seeing him for 4 weeks when I come back from holidays.  

He does understand my BPD and how it’s csusing chaos in my life when stressed. 

Im to continue daily walking. He encourages me but I still struggle to believe him at times. 

[Gazza75]

@BlueBay, I think it's hard for. People to understand how hard things can be with mental health .

Are you still looking at joining the group walking? I think that would be a really positive step to take. They can help you on those bad days, as you can help them sometimes.

As @Former-Member said earlier, you have held up remarkably well through this turmoil. You are very resilient and inspiring to a lot of us

❤️❤️❤️🌼🌼🌼☕☕