Looking after ourselves
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20-10-2020 10:01 PM
20-10-2020 10:01 PM
Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away: No responses please
I have a Job Interview tomorrow (Wednesday) morning - First Group Info Session, Manual Handling Exercises, Knowledge Skills Tests, then Interview.
For a job that is too stressful, requires a huge amount of daily driving (to & between clients), & is the lowest paid of virtually anything.
I have 12 year's experience working with Challenging Behaviours (in Disabilities).
So I know very well that it's very stressful (for me), that the distance driving for work is unmanageable - & that this type of work (field) has caused injuries & serious wear & tear to my body.
Yet this is the first & only Job Interview that I've been offered, in many months.
So Damned if I do, & Damned if I don't - Yes I feel obligated to do it, for the Wrong Reasons.
My overwhelm worsened, brain freeze & dissociation (with heightened anxiety) – for the rest of today.
Worsened by more triggering phone calls & emails, Re: Info Session & Interview.
I discovered their extra Paperwork (required) too late, this afternoon – completed that.
I’ve been unable to prepare myself for any Interview (tomorrow).
Tried to Ground myself with great effort (over several hours), not successfully.
The past few days have been nightmarish, a hard struggle.
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21-10-2020 10:39 AM
21-10-2020 10:39 AM
Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away: No responses please
So much negative talk. Telling me to do things yo sabotage myself
it has to stop
seeing my dictir this afternoon
i can't stand it.
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21-10-2020 02:17 PM
21-10-2020 02:17 PM
Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away: No responses please
I'm tired of everything
I can't keep fighting
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22-10-2020 05:03 PM
22-10-2020 05:03 PM
Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away: No responses please
Hi @Clawde
I don't think we have 'met' on here before. Just wanted to say hi and thanks for pressing the support button on most of my replies.
Do you have a post about yourself?
Good to see you around
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22-10-2020 07:14 PM
22-10-2020 07:14 PM
Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away: No responses please
I did not get offered the job – They turned me down, this afternoon.
It was a long way away, 30 Km to their office – plus involved a lot of driving (easily 100 Km per day).
So not suitable - yet still disappointing, as this was my only interview in 6 months.
On a positive note, my GP said that I’m doing amazingly well – considering that I’ve lived alone for 10 years, & having lost my social engagements (through job loss).
He said that I am very strong - Yes I am grateful to hear that.
Yet I should not have to be so strong - it's because I have to be strong (on my own), just to survive.
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23-10-2020 06:04 AM
23-10-2020 06:04 AM
Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away: No responses please
Hi @Clawde
im seeing that you're pressing the support button but not chatting.
is there a problem with me?
you seem to be following all my replies to others and to be honest it's a bit uncomfortable because you don't chat.
I asked you if you had a post of your own but you didn't reply.
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23-10-2020 06:11 AM
23-10-2020 06:11 AM
Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away: No responses please
Clawde really likes your posts and has no real story here yet, just look after you and for what’s it worth your a lovely Sole honoured to talking to you Thankyou X
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23-10-2020 07:03 AM
23-10-2020 07:03 AM
Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away: No responses please
Ok thanks @Clawde
I'm very paranoid at the moment sbd because you're not writing to me I was getting scared that my identity was known.
im sorry it's my over reacting paranoia
I hope you're ok. I try to be as honest as I can on here.
im hoping that by me writing helps others.
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23-10-2020 07:12 AM
23-10-2020 07:12 AM
Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away: No responses please
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23-10-2020 08:17 PM
23-10-2020 08:17 PM
Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away: No responses please
The pain is real
The exhaustion is real
this night is never going to end.
I am sorry I can't be the mum you remember, I am sorry you have to watch this mess unfold. I am sorry I am not able to give the 21st you deserve my boy.