Dear @Sophia1 

Hi, I need to have a private'ish chat with you so that's why I am dragging you back over to my other thread. On the 9th of July I got upset because you said that I was afraid of change. I got all defensive as it hit one of my emotional bruises probably left by childhood. I feel like our relationship which had previously been great got damaged at that time and instead of trying to repair it I melted down. I have sat on the sidelines of the writing letters since then which of course was only hurting myself as I had been previously been having a wonderful time with it and it was so fun and special. I felt a lot of loss and grief over the loss of the group and went so far as to ring my mental health clinic for advice. I am truly sorry but I guess I am guilty of holding a grudge as I am apt to do. I don't have many friends and I have no experience in fixing ruptures in relationships as I usually run in the other direction and use my avoidance techniques instead. I am truly sorry and would like to know if you can forgive me? I wish there was some way of having a properly private conversation with you.

Love Meggle 💛💜