Hello @TOXICONE ,

I'm in hospital this and next week, and was just told by the psychotherapist that I have PTSD as well. I have already been diagnosed with anxiety and schizoaffective disorder (bipolar type). So very similar diagnoses to you.

Remember that us humans are social creatures. We are wired for connection. It sounds like your 'pushing people away' is therefore a maladaptive response, a reaction to some negative responses you got in the past, when you sought connection. It takes some professional help such as therapy to rewire your brain to be comfortable again with connection. This definitely takes time, effort and discomfort - there is no quick fix.

What specific questions do you have? Ask away!

@tyme @babyshark