@MJG017

Hello M.  Thanks for your reply and don’t be worried about the delay. I did miss hearing from you though.

Today is another day I stayed in bed till after 12.  It’s chilly again and it’s just so easy, too easy to stay in bed feeling hugged by the doona. I so badly need hugs.

I do know I need to make more effort M, but I feel so incredibly flattened by what’s been happening lately. In different ways in my life I’ve been knocked down and got back up again - of course I’m older now than before but maybe thats the difference. I thought I did make a new friend recently - I reached out to a woman in a similar position, we met for coffee and both agreed to meet up again. And although I’ve contacted her a few times with no pressure at all she is not responding.  I don’t know why of course, so I will just leave it be and see what happens, or not. Where I live I’m surrounded by quite a lot of people and we have a Facebook page where I have asked for support (company) and got no replies at all and that’s hard. I don’t know what it is about me, I don’t know what people see

Part of all this is that I have lost my appetite and quite a lot of weight too. I have to make myself eat even though I don’t feel like it.  So I went for a walk yesterday and felt better for it, and today I can’t get going at all. I ate very little late night and nothing yet today and now it’s 1.30. I feel like going back to bed, but I won’t.

You mentioned a loneliness forum M.  How can anyone be sure that amongst them won’t be fake people who might try to scam you etc.  I guess that applies to this forum too. What do you think ?