Hi @Former-Member - haven't gone through all pages of this thread. Will do so after I write. Hope I am not too late. Am 3 hours behind AEDT so was at work. When my partner initially isolated me and said he had MI and needs space...the lack of understanding impacted me a lot. Not knowing what to do and the right actions given his lack of communication and his isolation hurt. I found myself struggling to sleep, getting anxious at times myself causing more troubled and lack of sleep, emotionally exhausted and hardly eating. It lead to me becoming this joyous person to someone who kept to myself and in turn isolated my friends. I isolated them more as I couldn't turn to them as they were judgmental and telling me what I should do, ie leave him cause he obviously doesn't care or love you, given they have not experienced this. My mind was constantly thinking about the "issue" and how to "fix it" that I was mentally exhausted. Finding these forums and getting advice from people like @Shaz51 @Faith-and-Hope @Appleblossom have helped me a lot the past year. I learnt to take more comfort in my activities I love as a temporarily relief from my mind and learnt that there is no right "fix" and it's a step by step.

I still have those days where I do go quiet, I start to worry and get anxious and still cause me have troubled sleep. Sometimes it's the pressures of my job. I don't like it at times that I have to isolate my friends at times but I know if I am open like I use to be...what they say will cause me to be angry at them as I know the judgment that comes out. And the assumption that it's because of my partner when these days it's more other things. Am not sure if that is a good or bad thing.