@Former-MemberHi there, I am sorry to hear things are so bad for you. Can you find anything, no matter how small, in your day that makes you feel ok, or good? Do you do anything nice for yourself? Do you have anything to distract yourself from those thoughts? Those dark feelings are difficult; I am struggling with similar issues myself. I am sorry you feel betrayed by those you feel should be helping you. It's not an eaasy road to travel. And it's horrible to have extra stress or bad news piled on top of everything else you are going. Are you on any medication for your anxiety, or can discuss extra prn medication with your pyschaitrist? Even it's just short term, it might help get you through. I am around for a another hour or so before I have sort dinner out. More than happy to listen to you, and I have poor memory right now, so I can hear your stories over and over again.