@Birdofparadise8 exactly! 

That is why there are different variations of depression! Clinical depression and situational depression. Clinical is inherited. For me, there was no reason for me to be feeling sad all the time. I'd just come back from a 3 month trip to North America, I was in a job I enjoyed and earning plenty of money. I'd bought my house and owned my car, had a group of friends I loved and was close to my family. But I was miserable. I would go to my doctor and burst in to tears but couldn't explain why. I was diagnosed with clinical depression and then about 10 years later, bipolar 2.

I became friends with someone who had situational depression - like you she'd had a tough time at school, was picked on by her siblings and then teased at high school. I met her as an adult and we got to know each other through our depression. Two different types of the same illness but it doesn't make one worse than the other. 

You don't go through years of trauma and not be affected. I can understand the reason the psych would be going the premature route but it's not something to dwell on.

(Let me know if I am rambling and not making sense, I do tend to talk a lot when it's a subject I'm passionate about)

My hope is that you will find the right treatment to make you feel good about yourself and your life, so that you can enjoy more than just the snippets of time in a day. 😍🙏