Yeah it will be a nice day. There is just a lot of setting up and cooking to do for it @RiverSeal 

What are you doing after here?

This is from a couple of posts I made yesterday. 

My mother is so unfair. She came into my room and woke me up at 7:45 am and said, Come on, we need to go and get the groceries now. Then I went upstairs to have breakfast first, and she said let's go. I said I needed to shower first, and she went off her head at me. I told Mum you can't expect me to be ready, dressed showered and have breakfast before I'm awake how can I do that? She had an unfair expectation and was very angry at me. I tried to tell her it was unfair, but she didn't seem to agree. 

Anyway, we've started the shopping one shop down and like 100 to go. 

I just don't understand why she has to act like this. 

I also have an appointment I booked five weeks ago I'm getting my legs waxed and she said how could I be so inconvinent because it's at 12:15 when I'm helping her with all the grocery shopping she never asked if I would help she assumed I would. I was going to help but still. 

Anyway it doesn't matter ill just have to put up with her and cry somehow. I don't know when or how I can’t go anywhere. 

This is why I said to my psych I would prefer to be in Melbourne and suicidal and alone than here when I have to put up with this and suppress my emotions so much. 

 tried to explain how I felt and she just goes off at me more. It’s hard to explain. I suppose every family dynamic is different. 
she just doesn’t think I have a life outside of her and that I’ll do everything she wants. She said she didn’t even think that I might be busy doing something today. 

I just want to be able to cry so badly. Hopefully, I can go for a walk tomorrow to the nice water lookout and there is a small area where there are seats so I can go cry there, but I highly doubt I'll be able to leave her. 

She thinks I'm 12 or something when I'm not I'm 20 that's what's annoying as well. How she treats me like I'm so little. I've changed a lot this year, and learnt a lot about myself and my needs. They are different to what my needs and boundaries were a year ago.