Hi to all my forum friends. 
I hope you are all doing well. 
I am in the middle of my third week in hospital and it has been the hardest thing I have ever had to do. 
My first day here I had to isolate for 27 hours until I got my COVID test results. I was not allowed out of my room during that time. That was really rough to do because I couldn't even go out for a smoke. But I had all my meals delivered to me and I had my diamond paintings to keep me distracted. 
My one on one EMDR sessions are on tuesdays and fridays. My first session was pretty cruisy. It was all about thinking of  one person who is my calm person, one person who is my wise person and one person who is my protector. These people will be called upon during my sessions as I need them. My EMDR therapist is absolutely lovely. I have a great connection with her and I feel completely safe around her. She is amazing and really knows her stuff. She is very good at keeping me grounded and feeling safe. 
The sessions have been very overwhelming and tough to get through so for this reason I am gratefull I am in hospital because your brain continues to process things for 72 hours after the session. So a couple days after my sessions I am dealing with a lot of memory and body base feelings. It can get pretty overwhelming and very very tiring. 
On Wednesday's and Thursday's I have group sessions and in these sessions we just learn about different things like grounding techniques and we talk about nightmares and triggers and lots of different things that relate to our mental health. These sessions a really tough for me because I suffer from social anxiety so being in a small room woth 10 people is a lot for me. Social anxiety is something that I struggle with a lot in here. I keep to myself mostly in my room but I do try and at least eat in the dinning room with others but even then I cannot stay too long because the noise in the room is very triggering for me. I have become very sensitive to noise and touch. It is very frustrating. 
I have had some very very low days where all I have done is sleep most of the day away but I have also had some ok days too. I miss my 2 boys so very much but they are doing very well living at mums and spending the weekends with my brother. Their father is an a**hole and hasn't seen his kids since June. I speak to them every morning and every night. Unfortunately because of COVID I cannot have any visitors and I am also not allowed out. This has made things even harder to deal with. Thank god for FaceTime. Lol

Anyway I won't bore you all with too much more. I just hope you are all doing well and you all have been in my thoughts everyday. I cherish each and everyone of you and feel very blessed to have you all in my life. 
take care and stay safe 

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