Yep I think so @StanD and I am not surprised!! Tool hits some very good spots in the brain ay. 

I think that's pretty normal hun - we're creatures of habit after all. And that's not just a funny little saying, our brains literally evolved to find the familiar to be comforting. Hence why people do tend to end up staying in abusive relationships for so long, because the system tells them the safety of familiarity of the abuse is less scary than the unknown that comes with leaving. I mean that's oversimplified obvs and just one facet of it but it's still worth remembering - cos it means it's gonna take your system time to re-adjust itself, adjust expectations and adjust how you approach certain things in your relationships. You are building a whole new 'familiarity'. And that can actually feel like a threat to the system sometimes!! 

Do you have a skilled support team around you or like, a decent therapist and stuff? Also if you haven't already, take a peak into attachment trauma. It's one of my special interests so I'm biased lol but it's helped me soooo much in figuring out why I sometimes behave so whacky in my relationships.