@Former-Member 

Yes, it so much harder to deal with so much bad news when you're alone.  I was a bit luckier in that ive had a couple of people to help me but family had been nonexistant and i had very few friends when it began.  So i can only imagine how hard it is with no one at all.  But you do have us here and while i know its not the same as having someone there in person next to you, online friends can be a huge source of support as discovered myself earlier last year.  We'll help you through this.