@Neetram How are you this afternoon? What you are going through is very tough, I’m very sorry. My Mum too is a person that should have not been a mother. But we have them and that’s how it goes. 

My Mother poisoned my two sons to keep away from me,  but through therapy I got stronger and with Sane forums. And medication. I guess Im asking you to take little steps every day and focus on the wins. 

When it began for me the only thing I could do to make money was to clean houses. So that’s what I did.

Are you working? Do you see your GP  Doctor?