hello @Anastasia 

Thank you for sharing your difficult journey with anxiety..

I know only too well the anxiety that is provoked when it comes to trying to support our unwell sons within systems that just do not fit the needs..

Communication around so many questions that we do not have time or energy to think of all of them...

Attempted hours of research into diagnosis only to be led to endless research...endless efforts ...hope drained and dashed..

Non acceptance by sons...from my point of view totally understandable given the systems that do not work only serve further to make them try to flee...induce fear and reinforce stigmatism..

It is a rabbit warren for the unwell ....

some staff and doctors really a re there to make a difference but the system stops them at a certain point..

then they have to go back and start all over again with another patient..

Carers having to keep on asking questions....seeking other avenues for answers...support..

never finding what actually fits..

too many moments of hope when referred on...only to end in a neverending circle..

My family member has a birthday soon which only induces anger and psychosis...his life experiences of being alone and in whatever phase of not being in his own home...boarding houses....on the street...

His anosognosia what a mouthful..fuelling him to defend his rights...

I had he major depression on and off since a young child...the anxiety reared it's ugly head following on from life experiences with unsupportive family and many more..

I wore a mask throughout my working career..at work and at home and socially..

Even now I am seen as bubbly, friendly when I am not in tears or arriving late ..

I am worn out now ...the mask stopped fitting after son first fled the state..

loss of friends and my sister's partner all  about the same time..

Then working hard to hide the anxiety just not working when overwhelmed with unresolved piles of grief..

I am still here though as is my son...we are still being us...resilient and persistent..

so many parallels between us..

Reading about the hearing loss and how you have helped the anxiety @Anastasia @Shaz51  who also has far much on her plate with her own health concerns added...actually helps me feel less alone with it...

So thank you both..

Triplets...

Anastasia we were three amigos with appleblossom weren't we..

our triplets are expanding..

Sophia💜