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Thank you so much for your kind words and support..

Those of you who have known me for some time now realise I am not good at opening up about myself let alone asking for support..

I have always been the one to give..

Very good at telling others to give to themselves and take self care.

Not good at practising what I preach as my dad used to say...bless him...wish he was still with me in this world..he is in my heart..

my anxiety levels are still high..

had lovely day yesterday with younger son and husband working on his front garden...hard work...roterating soil ..raking ...picking up stones..rocks...concrete offcuts left by builders...

3 hours hard work...looks such an improvement already..

we are going to help him landscape the front first..

he loves doing it as well...learning but working on his home...he is very proud of his new home and loves his independence and home that he is continuing to design himself.

Was good..

I have a worsened situation with my hearing...2nd audiology hearing test and report done by another audiologist shows far different results and not good.

hearing loss in right ear moderate..in left ear severe...

had random earaches now pain is almost constant and stronger..

have ent specialist appointment in mid november...audiologist picked up some issues with eardrum as well as cochlear...

hearing loss and pain is aggravating and provoking anxiety further..

so am overwrought and fed up with having to stress that I cannot hear..

stand in front of me and speak to me face to face..

am going to lay down and rest soon..

@Clawde that is one of the loveliest expressions that I have heard in offering support..

"spreading fairydust".

Appeals to my innerchild with whom my relationship grows stronger daily..

Love to you all 

please keep on being yourselves and when and if I upset you I apologise in advance..

please let me know but please do not tell me off or say that I am being difficult..

thank you xx