Dear @Former-Member 

I have just read your posts on the hangar thread  after I had logged off late yesterday afternoon.

I am so sorry that I was not able to be there and offer you the support that you gave me..

Perhaps this was what you wanted to talk about and changed your mind..

Please know that everything that you said was from your heart and I felt the pain and loss, grief that you were feeling..

I have lost pets and feel deeply like you do...they are our family..

For me they remain my family forever..

I carry them in a special place in my heart where they are safe..

They will stay with me forever and be with me always..

When I think of them and feel sorrow....distress....pain....grief....I cry to release those feelings and I put my hand on my heart and feel that I am stroking them as I did when they were on this earth.

For me they are still with me in a different way...

different for each of us..

Yesterday, would you believe, I felt very distressed and vulnerable  as you picked up.

I had a dreadful  experience at the optometrists with different staff who were defensive, inconsistent,,incorrect and rude...

I left there with a chaotic state of mind  and landed in Neds.

This is a cheap shop where I find myself ending up when I have  to visit the dreadful shopping centre.

I loathe shopping centres...

In Neds there was much to look at.

Then  I heard a voice call out we are closing at 5.30pm..

I asked the time and was told 5.28pm.

My eyes then fell on a statue which brought me some comfort...I felt held..

I bought the statue.

I am going to share a picture of this with you.

A gift from me to you to help you in your present moment of loss..

I have lost several pets over the years.

I have a special burial ground in my back garden corner under a tree for 3 of my pets who have passed and gone over the rainbow bridge.

I am in the process of tidying the garden...adding some plants..

Now I will add this ornament...

I hope that this will bring you some comfort and some temporary relief until you find your own way of dealing with your grief.