the constant pain and frustrations of physical ailments and its impact on my mental health also is becoming upsetting let alone the regular mental health concerns.

im also aware that my caree doesn't mean to be the way he is but im worried that im not going to be able to cope sooner rather then later.

Just having a day I guess where I just don't want to deal with things, deal with the distress, repetition. responsibilities.
its a lonely place to be sitting.