Right now Jasper's chewing on a plastic bag or the medication foil. I just had a lady here who's going to take care of them next weekend.

My case manager was fine. He knows I have means here in the house for SH/SA but I refused to hand it over, and he didn't push the issue. I respect for that. It's my one bit of control I have to shut down if needed. We talked a bit about my mother, and for now I won't contact her.

But my mother is very close to loosing me. I won't tolerate these pathetic games she plays. Right now she's being a spoilt child chucking a tantrum. I'm so tired of playing peacemaker. She's made my life very difficult in many ways as the impact of what's she's done will have a ripple effect on the rest of my extended family.

I am going on a volunteer retreat next weekend. Its kinda for getting to know people better, team bonding and similar stuff. I'm looking forward to it, but I'm also very anxious as well.

How are you tonight.?