I can feel you sitting with me on this difficult day - @Anastasia 

I sent my daughter a text rather than engage her in conversation today - I know there are times when she just needs to be by herself -  I understand that - there are times when I feel the same

It is difficult when those we love have to go through something - I am not sure what the surgeon is doing today - it seems similar to what I had done a few weeks ago but I was only sedated and it was my shoulder - not my spine - I was awake when I had my spine done in March - whether it's a different procedure or a different surgeon or both I don't know,

And I want to know - I want to know everything - I am of a different mind-set - it bothered my mother terribly but my father loved it - today I am sitting with it and glad you are there

But whether or not because I took things easy yesterday I don't know but I am managing to tidy my unit which was looking a bit sad - I like things tidy but I am not afraid to let things go if I need to

Your words are fine - here that's all we can give each other really and they do well when meant well as you do - I hear you - I understand

Dec