Thanks @Anastasia 

You are so wonderfully understanding - I think I am tired and all of life's troubles come in their own time and we can only do what is possible when it is possible and life is a lot about waiting after all

I need a knee replacement and a shoulder replacement - I inherited the tendency to develop arthritis from my grandmother and I have lived longer than her now - we were both very active people and sometimes stuff happens

And for my spine an operation for Degenerative Disc Disease isn't advised - it would be a huge operation fusing my whole lumbar spine and it's just not happening - and for the joint replacement surgeries I am having injections of local anaesthetic injection into the nerves of my knee and my shoulder was a RF (radio-frequency) procedure to put the nerves to sleep and they have worked very well though when the lock-down is over I will be having them done again - to me this is better than having joint replacements because at my age the prognosis isn't good and I just don't have the time to waste having long recovery times - I want to get some more of travelling in Australia done while I can

My daughter is much younger of course - the prognosis is good from what she says and from what I have read. I love anatomy and actually did a course in the formal study of anatomy a long time ago - and I am just so interested I keep reading the internet - and I have found where to find the information I seek - not just a Dr Google fan - though Dr Google is fine too

Having my daughter in hospital and now at home and not recovering very well is stressful - there isn't anything I can do about it except talk on the phone and we do - the lock-down is hurting me now but all things pass and this will to - the lock-down and elective surgery etc - so I can just wait. I was lucky myself to have my shoulder procedure when I did - I was one of the last patients to have elective surgery in the private hospital I attended

And yes - I had to end my relationship with a person I could have gone to the movies with - but it was toxic and that is hard to explain to the person concerned without making it all about them and their issues - so I hope she takes the hint - I am not by nature unkind and I extend that to myself - so yes - today I feel is just one of those days.

And COVID does have a lot to answer for - world-wide. There are places and there are many that have not done it well. My case worker has most likely been overwhelmed with the needs of her clients but she is so strange at times - it was suggested to me yesterday than I might need to review my case-worker - but maybe right now - just let this pass and hope I get an answer before I go out tomorrow

I do like to be supportive - that's true - today I think I need it - it could be time for a coffee

And I love the quote you posted about Forgiveness - it is indeed for our own well-being - I found it fantastic to forgive and remember not to take it back - my mother - after all - has passed on and nothing can change with her - only with me

Thanks for your understanding and support

Dec