Hi @Anastasia @TAB @Shaz51 @NatureLover @WIP @Appleblossom @Zoe7  etc

I am not having my best day - so add another thing and it's okay - I just want to share a couple of things - I am sure things will work out in the long run

I spoke to my daughter on the phone yesterday - I was a very busy day and I guess I feel flat after it all - 

Mu daughter is seeing her specialist earlier than planned - the advice from her doctor etc is that she will most likely have a spinal fusion when it's possible - it is pretty urgent and I don't know how the freeze on elective surgery stands in Melbourne but it is unsettling news

She is my most important person - it's natural that I find it hard to get on with my day today - and that's okay too - but of course this is a worry for me. I am sure it will all work out 

Ever since I injured my spine 25 years ago I have been warned and warned by doctors not to have a spinal fusion but the damage in my spine is DDD - not slipped discs - I have looked this up on the internet and this kind of surgery needs to be done asap - 

And - I have enough on my mind really. I met a woman locally back during the bushfires and we hit it off and talked on the phone a lot and went to the movies. I wasn't working out because although I was happy to listen as time went on the lock-down was obviously getting to her and she was talking at me rather than too me and eventually she didn't stop when I told her I really needed to go

This was tough - I really had enough - I was starting to feel used. She has rung a couple of times but I haven't picked up when I see who it is. I feel rotten doing this - I don't want to try and explain why to her because she doesn't listen - if I saw her in the street - yes - I would tell her.

I have my own life-problems to deal with right now and can't take this but I feel bad - I know I am doing the right thing for myself and I can only deal with myself in the long run. I think I will have to block her number 

I really hate this

Dec