At the moment i am not feeling good.  i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'.  i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up.  i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative.  i can't deal with this anymre.  all of a sudden i am not feeling good.  i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home.  i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on.  actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough.  But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary.  but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece.  they didn't tell me anything.  but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now.  hopefully he can take the mirena out.  i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop.  no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞