Hi @william-support 

Thanks for sharing, and welcome.

If you want to get things moving quickly, then going private is usually a good start. It's also worth contacting any services that might be able to help, even if it's not exactly to do with depression. Sometimes you ask the same question to enough people, one person will have the right answer for you. 

Also, stress levels are high for you, but you do need to look after yourself and be mindful of barriers. So, keep in contact with services regularly for yourself. You need to be ok, so you can help others.