Admission interview confirmed that it was the right decision for darling to be in hospital. 

There was an actual pre meditated attempt (by darlings admission) to not be here in a short period of being alone on the morning of admission (while still at home). 

Thankfully poorly executed so no lasting physical harm but the intent is of great concern. 

Among a few of concern, one comment was "my mum died and life went on, the boys will get over it"

😭

Generally a level of despair and giving up that I have not seen in a long time. Since the last time we were in crisis. 

I am inequipped to deal with this at home at any level.