Trying makes it worse

[Appleblossom]

Sorry @tyme 

Old computer broke... with proper QWERTY keyboard etc. Single finger typing on new tablet annoying. That’s all. I am less garage full than some re new tek and its amazing wonders. Sorry for being grumpy bum

[Appleblossom]

Grateful 

darn 

I typed it in twice and darn gadget still thought it knew better tha me wot I wanted to say.  @tyme 

Cheers mate

[EternalFlower]

hi @Oaktree @Dimity @tyme @Appleblossom @Dimity Jasper_123 @tonys @

hello there!

My aircon blasted all day today - never know when to turn it on and now wandering if i should turn it off to save the money!! It was hot today

i went to see a movie which was a little triggering, but i wanted to get out and do something. my support worker found out i was going and offered to come with but i went alone . tbh i enjoy going alone 😉 used to it now. maybe in future i'll get used to having people with me, too.

My support worker and I went shopping. She wants to come on wednesdays and i have another guy who also wants wednesdasy. I dont even know what i say yes to sometimes in the moment. Luckily I do have a good (great!!!) suppor coordiantor who is a blessing and gets them all in order. 

My support workers feel like friends at time - but I'm a cuatious person, and don't always know how much to let them in.

My most regular one is quite sweet. Her name is Leo.

How was ur day @tyme 

Hope ur doing well @Oaktree 

[tyme]

Heya @EternalFlower .

Had an okayish day. It was a bit of a BPD day though and a lot of BPD anger. I was angry at everything. Angry at the world. .... and yes, I lashed out and said things I now regret....

The joys of BPD. 

I'm not going to think about it too much tonight, but when I have time, I'd like to unpack today a little and work on some of it with a therapist or someone....

I'm glad you have support workers who you can hang out with. Sounds like you have the support you need right now. 

And yes, it WAS hot today!!!

[tyme]

Lol @Appleblossom . Don't be sorry.. I'm a grumpy bum today too. 

I'm sorry that your computer konked out and you are now typing one-finger on your tablet... 

I can't even get the forums to load properly on ipads and iphones... this is something I've flagged with our tech experts. They are looking into it. Frustrating!!!

Hope it gets sorted soon @Appleblossom  🙂

[EternalFlower]

made this guy today @tonys @TAB 

it is so soothing

all the smells and sensations and i love crushing up the tinned tomatoes by hand

i dont always put it in the oven and bake it but i have before and its so delish!

[TAB]

sounds like you enjoyed cooking @EternalFlower  theres no pic, just saying. thats okay. 😁

[tonys]

I rolled up to the hospital i with a bunch of flowers, peaches and mangoes . .  looked everywhere

and you were gone @EternalFlower ..   OH boy..  I just can't keep up with you mate.   Kidding. . .

So how are you eternal..   Well I can smell some good tucker  bubbling away in the kitchen,  so  I'm hoping

you're sunny side up..   Did you grab your swag and just abscond from the hospital or was there a time limit on your stay..?   I kind of liked the sound of that place.  Oh well.   I suppose you could always sneak back in through a window and double bunk with someone.  Sorry mate .  I'm being a cheeky bugger.  Mate I love cooking with tomatoes too.   slowly watching them reduce and sweeten 

up,  and then there's the garlic and basil  and fine chopped onion.  Gotta be fine...   Then don't 

let that sauce stick.   gotta work the bottom of that saucepan..  OH  damn..   I've done it again.

Jumped right into your story and taken over your  kitchen.  So what are we having with that 

aromatic sauce.   

Well mate,  Its nice to hear your back in your own kitchen and the pot lids are chattering away to each

other in tongues of steam.  

You Know What. . .  after all that..   I'm hungry.     OH.  what movie did you see.  Take care ol friend.

Hi @Dimity ..   Hope you cranked the dial on that aircon and got through the hot day with ease.

How did your shindig go @Oaktree .   Lots of smiles strung like hammocks between rosy cheeks.

You just love mothering people ,  don't you Meggle.  Bet they saunter out of there like penguins, from all your,  "wont take no for an answer"   extra  dollops of dessert .. 😊  If  I was your neighbour, you'd never get me out of your yard.  LoL..    Enjoy mate.

Hey @Appleblossom   You cranky . . .     n..e..v..e..r....   LoL   Girls gotta let the bee's out now n then.

and  tech..   Its the perfect catalyst for a crack in a steam pipe.     I would probly have turfed that

upstart  predictive tablet through the window.   So how did your singalong go @Appleblossom .

Planning and more trips away ?      Take care   Appleblossom.   

Hi  @tyme .   You know something,   Your so cool calm and collected,   I tend to forget your human.

Always pictured you looking like   M  in Bond. . .  Well I hope the day got better for you and you finished on a cloud with a cool frosty glass in hand.

Take care of yourself   Bond..  I mean  M,   opps   I mean    @tyme ...   

Goodnight folks..     peaceful dreams.                 tonys..

[Appleblossom]

@tonys  Love ya. Not travelling for a while. Lots little plans.

@EternalFlower Good to hear your  spt  co-ordinator Is good. Can make a big difference.

@tyme I tried to avoid apple altogether but I was Lucky and sent one!

[EternalFlower]

hi @tyme to disclose my own BPD stuff I get very upset at NDIS providers who try and charge me for servicces not rendered, and regularly fire them all. fun!!

my new coordinator gaev me a tip to just say "no" to most things offered, because sometimes i am offered when i'm vulnerable and then end up being charged when i rethink it. I was charged 3600 for a holiday i cancelled a week before for NDIS respite. It makes me angry and I fight with them. Great for me!

I am sorry you had a hard day and hope you can be kind to y ourself, that you were trying to express a need. x