Introduction

[Oaktree]

@LeChuck 

I only got 22 notifications, it’s all good!

Meggle

[LeChuck]

Dot points on this sheriff's life 

A blessed childhood. Emotional and mental abuse from alcoholic grandmother who babysat each day. But water of a ducks back for me, busy shielding my little sister I have no trauma from that time, just a deep dislike of my grandmother. In fact everyone on that side of the family. No contact.

Grew up in a small town free to roam, with beautiful parents who are still rocks to this day.

Hadn't first taste of booze at 14, was always the drunkest one from that point on, didn't even have a basic grasp on doing things in moderation. Problems with alcohol all through boarding school, 17-18. Bipolar started at 17 but was not successfully diagnosed until 19. Had a horrific psychiatrist. He should be sued for malpractice for the damage he did to me mentally and my subsequent actions.

Found a wonderful psychiatrist at 20, she has been by my side for the last decades journey through treatment resistant bipolar. A trail of wreckage follows everywhere I go. Never stable for more than 12 months. 6 months depressive eepisodes, 3 month manic every time. Tried to build a life for myself in the little time that I was stable over and over again. Those tentative steps to try and have a normal life were useless. They were burned to the ground before they even started to feel like a life. Have spent more time in mania and depression than I have spent in stability for ten years. Reaching a point where the only rational conclusion, evidence based, is that I will never be able to build a life for myself and I'm no longer willing to try. Have told doctors I will try one more time, and when I am well I will reassess my decision. I felt that was fair to everyone. I don't think it will change. 

But we will see. 

That is a brief overview, I will share more about the journey and the path to addiction as I can.

Love and good vibes to you all @Oaktree, @tonys @Sophia1 

[LeChuck]

Hahaha @Oaktree 22 eh? I stopped cheating by using supports as a place holder, thank the heavens. I'm caught up now. Takeaway from reading a gagillion missed poses is that you're all amazing and I definitely want to be back in toon town asap. 🙂

[Oaktree]

We certainly miss our Sheriff @LeChuck 

We need your imaginings.

I was just drawn to @Former-Member ’s thread to see why he was leaving. I really hope that toon town doesn’t implode. I once tried to hold onto the 100 acre wood too tightly and that didn’t go well either. It was a fun place at first but then it got stressful and people were hurt. Hopefully motion will find another safe place to hang out instead of leaving. Maybe he will come to hang out with us in the saloon? 
I guess the problem lies in the fact that everyone on Sane is at varying levels of unwellness. It makes relationships and communication tricky. We all need to be so much more careful. I am really trying. Some good people have gotten so wary and hesitant to be involved with others for fear of getting hurt again. Fair enough! 

Meggle

[LeChuck]

As long as we stay kind to each other this thread will never implode. Your sheriff has taken a break but when she's present she is keeping an eagle eye out for even a hint of the dangers that motions thread suffered. I hope this time, if things start to creep into dangerous territory, the moderators have learned their lesson and will help keep this a safe space. Because I love our little slice of western paradise.

@Oaktree @tonys @Sophia1 

Good vibes from me to you three.

LeChuck xx

[Sophia1]

Hello @tonys @Oaktree @LeChuck 

Sorry if you are still on sabbatical Le Chuck

I think that you have worked out The Toon Town folk (including myself) have no concept of a person taking time out; when we need to speak to you we speak to you.

Beast advice (meant to say best but thought well Freud would say leave it there)

So Beast advice re sabbatical (yes I digress easily) is respond when You feel up to it.

We will survive even though it might not come across that way.

It does read to a new comer that The Sherriff held this Toon Town together with more structure.

[Sophia1]

Thank you for sharing your story.

@LeChuck 

A long, ongoing journey.

I feel that there is courage, strength, determination, survival, struggle, pain, feelings of helplessness yet conviction and pushing through.

I cannot feel or even discuss what it is like to go through that type of seesaw of emotions over such a long period of time.

I have listened to adult child with different diagnosis.

Psychosis reaching out to me and my still knowing that person is there and needing someone to recognise their attempt pushing through (would be unimaginable intensity) to be heard.

So I do understand your constant struggle and survival attempts in a world that is not always forgiving. A big part of the battle.

You have a loving partner who supports you.

I won't bang on. I just want to let you know that I know myself, with my own pain and struggles and holding onto  adult child's pain that it often feels very alone. No one else can possibly understand.

I understand that part.

You are not alone with that part.

I also believe that @Oaktree and @tonys will tell you the same that you are not alone with that part.

In Tonys words. We have your back.

I will be quiet now.

Lioness Big Chief and Little Foot have told me "enough!'

Don't have a desert

Hope that you like connecting with nature.

I don't want you to stay there though!

[tonys]

Hey there partners.   @LeChuck  @Oaktree   @Sophia1    How the hell are ya all.     Well LeChuck.   Yer back in town old friend.    Mate.   I tip my hat to you fella.  That was a big share.

Did not expect all that.   I hope that didn't hurt to much,  . . .  but you still got your wisdom teeth.

I  hope you didn't feel you had to do that,   then part of me is glad you did,   in the hope that sharing helps you a tiny bit.    And then there's me  the town drunk.   and you know what

Ready for this. . . .   truth is I only drink a glass or two with my Tucker,   Some nights I don't

drink at all.    Course I did when I was on the streets,   but thats a "once upon a time story"

So  how do you manage to hang out with me,  Mr bad habits,  and worse sense of humour.

Hope its not all a big trigger.  Then when ya step into toon town,  fingers are never far from 

triggers.    Mate   the tin stars on the bar where you left it.

No rules in toon town mate .   Just cause we spill our drinks,   doesn't mean you have too.

Share as much or as little as you wish Le Chuck.  Everyones pakin heat so we its live n let

live here mate.

Wrong people move in.  were just gonna pick the town up n move it.  We do that a few times

and the  stalkers will get the message.  Nothing sends a stronger message than just

Ignoring someone.   

Remember its your town,  and its a free country.  We all do what we need too,   so we survive.

Gonna ride the boundary,  and see what  the fence "posts"   look like.

Fresh pot of brews on the stove.   Back later  folks. .         tonys  2guns.

[Sophia1]

@Oaktree 

Similar scenario in 100 wood acre as Motion thread.

Sadly the aftermath can be similar to desecration left behind in war torn countries.

Tony's suggestion of picking up the whole town and moving on is good.

I had wanted to revive the virtual letter thread so many times.

Just too hard when everyone felt deflated.

I was hurting from troll or bully and needed time out.

I gave you space as you found a place here with HenryX and I knew you needed one on one.

So I am fine with you Meggle.

We did have some laughs didn't we.

I certainly missed those.

We can get them back here.

We just need to try to keep it a little more on track as is all over the place and so many posts are being missed.

How does that feel?

[tonys]

@HenryX    Sorry fella,    accidently sent you a post meant to go to elsewhere.   ignore it

please.   have a nice day. .    tonys