Not Coping

[Birdofparadise8]

My mother is so unfair. She came into my room and woke me up at 7:45 am and said, Come on, we need to go and get the groceries now. Then I went upstairs to have breakfast first, and she said let's go. I said I needed to shower first, and she went off her head at me. I told Mum you can't expect me to be ready, dressed showered and have breakfast before I'm awake how can I do that? She had an unfair expectation and was very angry at me. I tried to tell her it was unfair, but she didn't seem to agree. 

Anyway, we've started the shopping one shop down and like 100 to go. 

I just don't understand why she has to act like this. 

[Blackbird11]

Hey @Birdofparadise8 

Sounds a challenging relationship. I think your mum has high expectations of you. Keep calm and remember it's ok to take your time.

 

[Birdofparadise8]

Hi @Blackbird11 

Yes excacly my thought too. 

I also have an appointment I booked five weeks ago I'm getting my legs waxed and she said how could I be so inconvinent because it's at 12:15 when I'm helping her with all the grocery shopping she never asked if I would help she assumed I would. I was going to help but still. 

Anyway it doesn't matter ill just have to put up with her and cry somehow. I don't know when or how I can’t go anywhere. 

This is why I said to my psych I would prefer to be in Melbourne and suicidal and alone than here when I have to put up with this and suppress my emotions so much. 

How are you today? 

[Blackbird11]

It's ok @Birdofparadise8 to treat your self in the midst of a busy day. Surely your mum will stop for lunch around then.

Suppressing emotions is not healthy, try to realse somehow. 

Im doing well, just relaxing as I've done everything I can for Christmas day. I'm the most relaxed I've been for this time of year as I can ever remember. 

[Birdofparadise8]

Not sure if its a treat lo is a treat lol @Blackbird11 

More painful hahaha. 

No, we have two more shops to go to. I'm getting stressed. 

Oh well, there's nothing I can do. I am only alone when I go to bed but then I'm too tired so I don't cry. 
That's good to hear you already. What are you doing on Christmas Day? 

[Blackbird11]

So hard @Birdofparadise8 thinking of you 🤗

Christmas day for me will be a return trip to an outer suburb in Launceston. We are gathering at my brothers house for lunch.

[Birdofparadise8]

That sounds nice @Blackbird11 

How many people will be there? 

I have 17 coming over. 

Are you looking forward to it other than the drive? 

Yeah, it is a bit hard. Then Mum complains about me being annoyed at her. 

She said I should have told her I had a waxing appointment. 

[Blackbird11]

There will be 10 of us including a almost 1 year old. I look forward to the drive and spending time with family I don't see much.

Try your best @Birdofparadise8 keep your sanity, it's imperative. 

[bartart23]

Hey @Birdofparadise8  👋 

[Birdofparadise8]

Aww how cute @Blackbird11 

Yeah I will thank you. 

Hey @bartart23