Taking the plunge

[Maggie]

@CheerBear  I’m feeling the big yea for you. The gig sounds amazing. Go you. And speaking at graduation. 👍👍👍 I know there will be those “ Who do you think you are “ moments. That only makes the doing so much better.

I came home much lighter than I went @CheerBear . So pleased I pushed ( literally ) through all the doubts and fears. I will start some practice, then......do it. 

I couldnt help myself with this pic @CheerBear  we all need one of these.

[CheerBear]

Woohoo @Maggie! So glad you feel lighter and I love the ".... do it" 😁👍🎉 Yay 😊

I giggled with the necklace! Bonkers - the whole thing! I can't do shops at the best of times and just the thought of it is stressing me out. Empty shelves, busy shops, people feeling nervous - I don't like it. It's hard not to get swept away with it (I am finding anyway). Ugh! I'm fighting huge urges to clean, disinfect, organise, tidy, and prepare. It's silly but it takes little to trigger anxiety then banana brain 😏

[Maggie]

Oh the tidy clean bug @CheerBear . I have a steamer. 👍👍My last clean lifted the paint on the windowsill in the bathroom. Toothbrushes for the itty bitties. 🧐🧐 I know how little it takes to set the switch in motion. Could you sit under the tree with a drink?? Sending a coffee, a Tim tam, if you like them, or, peanut m&ms. ☕️☕️☕️

[CheerBear]

Morning @Maggie and everyone 💙

Missed you the last couple of mornings. I've been sick (story of my life at the moment 😏). Yesterday morning was really no good. I woke up with what felt like a migraine (I've only had one once before) then was hit with nausea and not being able to hold anything down. Kids had to get themselves ready for school because I was struggling to even move. I dragged myself to my psych appt to sit in a ball of "this is all too hard right now" and he listened well which helped me feel a bit better mentally. Dr again last night. I'm on antibiotics now though I'm not sure how helpful they'll be for this as it doesn't feel like something antibiotics will help with.

I've been sick again this morning and hit with nausea that feels like sea sickness. I'm so, soooo over feeling like :pile_of_poo:. It makes everything lots harder than it needs to be. It's coming up to three weeks of feeling blegh. I'm starting to think something is pretty not-right 😑

How have you been @Maggie? Counsellor today? I've been thinkingof you hoping there's been some colour in your day.

@TheVorticon I went to reply to a tag of yours yesterday but then the world started to spin :nauseated_face: Wanted to say I have been thinking of you also 🦾 (robot strong arm is as close as I can get to frustrated robot emoji!).

👋 to everyone who might come by ❤

[Maggie]

@CheerBear  I’m really sorry you are so unwell. I certainly does sound like something very not right. I don’t know if you saw you regular dr last night, or the bug factory one. I know you said there was a waiting period.  I hope you can get to the bottom of what is causing it. Big feels with you, and 💜💜💜 just one ☕️ Or maybe not. 

All my lights went out @CheerBear , they never stay on for long. Counsellor this afternoon, she knows it’s going to be messy. I just told her to give up on a hopeless case. She’s still coming. I’m grateful for that.

I hope there is some good somewhere today @CheerBear  lots of 💜❤️💙💚💛

@outlander  👋👋👋💜💜💜 and anyone passing through.

[CheerBear]

Bug factory doctor @Maggie. I was in the appointment for legit 3 minutes. I have an appt with my regular, not-bug-factory, doctor on Monday (booked 4/5 weeks ago) but it clashes with Middle's ortho appt. My health or my kid's health 😔?

Huge hugs and love for the lights out and hopeless case feels. That mega sucks. So glad counsellor is coming. You matter and you are worth it, though I get how big and loud the voices and messages that say otherwise can be.

(One of my faves for you ⬇️)

I'm climbing down the ladder to sit in the hole with you. "I know what it's like down here. And you're not alone"

🙁🖤🤍💙

[Maggie]

I can’t see the pic yet @CheerBear , but thanks for climbing down that long and dark ladder. I guess the table won’t be seen down here, but we have the pic ⬆️⬆️

I think i use up adrenaline with good stuff as well as the not good stuff. Unfortunately, the fall from the good seems to hit hard and can be unexpected. I can fall into the “ Ive made it out” trap. More wishful thinking than reality.

Is there someone who could take middle to the appointment @CheerBear.?? It’s really important, for both of you, that you find out what’s going on and maybe, get some tests going for your health. Please, if possible, don’t cancel your appointment.

Thanks for the “ not alone”. You aren’t either. 💙💜💛❤️💚

[Maggie]

@CheerBear  Dropping off ☕️☕️☕️. No need to reply. Just letting you know I’m thinking about you often.

[CheerBear]

I thought I replied to you post yesterday, sorry @Maggie 😏

Good morning ❤ That's a lovely pic above 🌈😊 My thoughts head your way often also.

How are you going this morning? How was counsellor?

[Maggie]

It’s nice to see you @CheerBear . I thought you might be under the doona, I am still. It’s a cool morning. No complaints from me. 👍👍

Counsellor was tricky. I had a few issues. As per usual, just my head playing those not so funny games. I wish my brain would mend. It’s exhausting untwisting the thoughts.

Not so dark today 🤞🤞🤞it stays like that.

How are you feeling today? Any arrangement about the dr and specialist clash, only if you want to talk about it. 

Love the pic you posted yesterday, it pretty much sums it up.