Lived Experience Forum

[Former-Member]

I hear you @Former-Member and have read your messages here, but can't reply here. Want to help you. 

[Former-Member]

You are so sweet @Former-Member. My thoughts are very jumpled up and emotions are all over the place. I honestly would not know where to start to unravel anything. Such a mess. I was venting on here as words kept coming to the surface of my thoughts and heart. I am not sure about the tagging. 

[BlueBay]

I've been used abused and mistreated by an old psychologist 

I thought he was nice and he liked me 

he treated me like a friend 

brother/sister relationship 

he took advantage of my vulnerability 

im sngry 

I hate him 

now I don't trust anyone 

[Snowie]

I want to go home but am scared of how I will cope. Being in here means I don't have to deal with some things, but when I go home I will have to deal with them all. How can I do that when I am not sure how to deal with all the issues waiting for me. So much pressure and so little comfort. I just keep sinking further and further down the hole, to where there is only darkness.

[Former-Member]

The atmosphere of this house is strained. It makes me feel even sader then I already do. I feel so stuck. In my heart I think I just have to forgive him again. Reason is the unforgiveness or holding a grudge towards him is making me feel even more awful. I can feel the bitterness inside me. And I hate that too. I cannot do it Father, I am so tired of him hurting me. Tears now.. Can't do it. Please help me. So weary of this year after year. 

[Whitehawk]

Hi @Snowie 

It sounds like you are facing a big challenge in going home Snowie. Good on you for letting it out here. I hope that posting about your sinking has helped you do what the thread is for; "getting it out and walking away."  I am sorry to post on this no response thread but I just want to send you a cheerio and check that you are okay this evening.

Thinking of you,

Whitehawk

[Whitehawk]

Hi @Former-Member 

I know this is a non response thread but I am concerned to read Maggie that you are being hurt and are wanting help.  It is great that you have been able to get it out here but I am worried that you may not be safe this evening.  You will not be able to get help in a crisis here on the forums so please reach out for help off the forums if you need it. 

Please take care and look after yourself.

regards

Whitehawk

[Snowie]

Thanks @Whitehawk 

I am just taking things min by min, thats all I can do

[Former-Member]

Thankyou @Whitehawk 

[Whitehawk]

Hi @BlueBay 

That is a powerful post you have shared today.  I hope that getting it out has allowed you to walk away as the thread intends. Trust can be such a challenge for us after abuse and mistreatment BlueBay.  I do hope that sometimes you have the courage and strength to trust others a little. Sharing your vulnerability here is indeed a sign of your courage and strength I reckon.

Go well this evening

Whitehawk