Not Coping

[tyme]

I tested because my sister told me to just test. I'm like, "Nah, I don't have it".

So I did the test and it showed up with only one line (negative). So I told them I didn't have it. 

Then about 15 minutes later, my sister looked at it, and a really really feint second line appeared. 

So I did 3 more tests and same thing. It was negative at first, then ages later, a really feint positive appeared. 

I don't really feel that bad at all. Not for COVID. The first time I had it was terrible. I had to get anti-virals.

After this, I'm going to go get the next booster if they have it in stock! I've been asking for weeks and the clinics have been waiting for the new vaccine to be delivered.

Oh well.

Not the end of the world. 

It just means I have time for heaps for study! I'm absolutely looking forward to it and have my days planned out.

[Birdofparadise8]

Oh okay @tyme 

How many vaccines have you had?

You'll like that then getting so study. If you don't want to do it to quickly then you won't have any more to do. 

[Birdofparadise8]

@tyme do you remember me mentioning about watching TV and thinking my parents might be thinking about me? We haven't talked about any of my MH since I told them in October what I did and being in hospital. 

Anyway, I’m watching a show and they mention suicide and stuff and I'm worried my parents would be thinking about what I did. 

[Birdofparadise8]

Morning 09:51

How are you feeling 09:51

? 10:27

@tyme 

The guy I'm talking to keeps doing this if I don't respond straight away. For all he knew I could be asleep. Since the first text is would be a question mark and I feel bad for not responding. 

Should I say something? I'm not sure how I would without sounding rude. 

I just hadn't responded because I just saw the question mark message. I had do not disturb on. 

[tyme]

1) I've had 5 vaccines because I've got lower immunity + asthma + other issues

2) With watching shows and thinking about suicide, if they do think about it, are you able to stop them thinking what they are thinking? They probably are, yet they probably aren't thinking about it either. Who knows? If you really wanted to know, the only way is to ask them. But then, what will it achieve? @Birdofparadise8 

I'm not sure I'm on the right track re what you are trying to say.

[Birdofparadise8]

I've had four i think @tyme 

Right okay. I guess I can't stop it. It's just wired thinking about them think about me.

Maybe im over complicating things. 
Do you think I'm weird for what I said yesterday?

[Birdofparadise8]

Don't judge me for the quick reply thing @tyme 

If I talked to my aunt and uncle and texted then I would only follow up if it's been two days and no response. 

Sorry like 50 things I've mentioned hahaha

[tyme]

You know what @Birdofparadise8 ? 

My job isn't really to give advice. But if I were in your shoes, I'd set my boundaries early to prevent getting hurt later.

Give time before responding and when you feel comfortable, let him know that you aren't always on your phone and may not respond straightaway. That way, you've set your boundaries. Otherwise, you may find yourself just doing everything he wants and it may not be the best. If he respects you, he wont get upset. If he gets upset, then maybe it was always about you meeting HIS needs.

Boundaries in ANY relationship are important. It protects both parties.

Sorry if the above sounds too prescriptive. If it does, I'll remove it.

[Birdofparadise8]

No you make a very good point thank you @tyme 

I just don't want to seem like I have to respond to every text the minute he sends one. 

[Shaz51]

Hello @Birdofparadise8 , @tyme 🙂