Not Coping

[Birdofparadise8]

Yes my GP is lovely @amber22 

She goes above and beyond for me.

[Birdofparadise8]

Hey @tyme 

Guess what? 

I'm going back to Hobart tomorrow until the 20th. 

I've got my friends ballet Concert and the bawdy panto on.

I had a job interview tosat which went really well but I won't be able to do the job as they want someone for different days than I can do. I saw my psych today and my GP. I got some bloods done as well. 

[Birdofparadise8]

Hey, does anyone at all want to talk? 

If you don't, please tell me, okay so I don't keep bothering you all? 

[tyme]

Sorry @Birdofparadise8  I only just saw your post. I've been a bit flat out.

That's so cool that you are going back to see your friend in Hobart. That's great!

Was this out of the blue? Or was it planned for a while?

Glad you saw your psych today. What a shame about the job? I'm wondering if you can tell them that if things change on their end (which it often does), then for them to contact you?

I had that happen with a job of mine in the past. Within a short time, there was a HUGE change, and the times were perfect for me 🙂

[Birdofparadise8]

Yeah okay @tyme 

No I got mum to book the flights yesterday hahah.

Nah they want Thursday and Friday no exceptions. 

My psych to contact what about? 

Did I say something? 

I'll have my session next week over telehealth. 

[Birdofparadise8]

TW: SI

Content/trigger warning

Why is being on the plane bringing back feelings of how I felt on the 16th and then the feelings around my attempt as it was that night I did it? 

I hope they will go away. I'm safe by the way. I'm looking forward to the week ahead, but it's like a rush of emotions. I'm going to read my book and try to enjoy the flight. It's just making me sad having these emotions come back. 

Can this go into a spoiler tag I can't do it on my phone. 

[tyme]

Hey @Birdofparadise8 ,

Sorry, I don't have an answer for you there. I'm not sure why you are feeling this way. It sounds challenging though. However, I hope you have a good time away. Enjoy your time with your family and friends - it sounds like it'll be a great experience.

[Birdofparadise8]

Hi @tyme 

Mmm it's a bit odd i don't get why these feelings are coming up. At least I'm not going home in Melbourne or I think I would cry. Where I'm going to be with my parents I can't. 

Yes, I'm sure it will be nice. However, by the 20th, I will look forward to coming back home. Melbourne home hahahah.

My uncle said he gets confused because I say home as in uni accommodation and then home in where my parents live in Hobart. 

We are about to fly so I'll catch you in an hour. Thanks @tyme 

[Birdofparadise8]

I'm back @tyme 

It was a good flight. I've been reading a book called Icebreaker by Hannah Grace. 

What have you been up to today? 

[tyme]

Glad you had a good flight @Birdofparadise8 . Sounds like you have a very busy time ahead of you.

I had a pretty chill day today. I feel like I'm more on top of my work now which is good. 

I read some books to my nieces and nephew, I spent a while on the phone talking to someone I mentored in the past. They wanted to catch up and said I always say 'I'll see', but I never get there - I need to seriously book in times because I'm usually back-to-back with things to do. I told her I'd see her maybe in the new year, but she wants to see me shortly.

I know you mentioned you want to have friends. I'm wondering what would happen if you just let things be and if they come to you, then let them? Only a thought. I guess that's the way I tackled things. But we are not the same 🙂