Not Coping

[Snowie]

It is good to have that support and the forums @Birdofparadise8 

I know it helps me, I hope it helps you too.

[Birdofparadise8]

Thank you @ENKELI 

I just want to get better but nothing is working. I feel so drained I’m over being depressed. I just want to be happy. I feel so miserable feeling sad, alone, worthless, hopeless etc. 
that sounds cool. I did try one but I had a red sticky thing I would have to put the diamond gem on and then onto the canvas. 
Is that what yours are like? 
sorry I took a while to reply I’ve just got back from my class. 

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 I understand. It really is draining when you are constantly depressed and nothing seems to be helping. 

I had to change medications a few times before things got better and it just seems that things ulare getting worse over the past couple of years. So I have clinical depression and it's exacerbated by situational depression. It truly sucks.

Yes, the red wax square is used to stick the dots to the stylus which is the most popular way of sticking the dots (drills) to the canvas. I also use a wax pencil which is just like a normal pencil but has wax to pick up the drills. 

It's not for everyone. One of my friends tried it but wasn't interested in continuing after she finished the first one. 

I have a really close friend in the US and she put me onto diamond painting when it first came out. She has done some really spectacular ones. 

How was class?

I am simmering a pasta sauce for dinner, so much more flavour than the throw in a jar method!

[Birdofparadise8]

Omg I’ve been suspended from RO for 8 weeks and I don’t even know why. 
ahh well tonight’s just going to be fun. It’s literally just shaken me up a lot. @ENKELI @ArraDreaming @tyme 

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 what's ro hon?

[Birdofparadise8]

Reach out youth forum @ENKELI 

I’m absolutely devastated.

its rejection all over.

I always said I was safe and would call KHL if I need support for suicidal things. 
they over react so much and this is one of them. This is the worst. I was devastated when I had a two day one and was literally itching to get back on. Like there are people I talk to on there and people who care about me and I won’t be able to see any posts for two months like they might think I’m not around anymore or like not alive. 
if my parents weren’t here I would be sobbing right now. 
they don’t even give me a reason why. 
how can they do that to me. 
I feel betrayed. 
I know I have sane, but there are a few people on there I’ve gotten closer too and not being on there for two months is just really sad. 
@tyme 

[tyme]

Hey @Birdofparadise8 , are you able to ask them why you have been paused for 8 weeks?

I'm sorry to hear this has happened.

[Birdofparadise8]

I have I’m waiting for a response. 
Maybe because I mentioned about the footy but other than that I don’t know because I’ve always said I’m safe and all that @tyme 

ahhh this is not good. I won’t cope. I need them. I wish my mum and dad would just go. I need to cry. I need to something I feel so deregulated right now. I can’t even leave they will ask why. 

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 oh sweetie, that is terrible. And they gave no reason? How can they do that?!

I understand what you mean how you feel closer to people on RO, and given that it is a MH forum a ban like that is counter-productive. 

Is there anyone you can contact to find out more?
Anything I can do to help?

I was thinking about what I said about Sane not being as much benefit for me and I think it's because of the time difference. Most of the members are over east and while there is a 3 hour difference I am always on too late.
I also wish there was a live forum so we didn't have to wait for an email to see if there is a reply if that makes sense.

[ArraDreaming]

Sorry bud @Birdofparadise8 that really sucks I hope you get answers soon
Did that come through on an email?
We will be here