Not Coping

[amber22]

When are you meant to get the email? @Birdofparadise8 

I hope you're okay, Covid is not fun at all! I hope you're able to rest today. 

I'm going well thank you, I'm going to a pottery class tonight!

[Birdofparadise8]

I don't know when they will decide to reply to me. 

I feel like crap mentally and physically, so not fantastic. 

That sounds fun what will you make @amber22? Have you made pottery before? 

[Birdofparadise8]

Don't worry they replied it's fine @amber22 

[amber22]

Oh yay! What did they reply? @Birdofparadise8 

I'm sorry that you're struggling at the moment, I hope you're cuddled up in bed and able to relax a little bit.

I'm not sure - I've never done pottery before, but I was thinking I might make a mug for my morning coffees!

[Birdofparadise8]

Um, I'm not sure if I should say on here @amber22 

It's RO. 

It's so hot in my room, I think because of the weather and I have a temp. 

That sounds cool. Can you post a photo of it once you're done I'd love to see it. 

[amber22]

Oh that's totally fine! @Birdofparadise8 

You poor thing, I hope you're nearing the end of having Covid. 

Yes of course! I'm not sure if it will be any good but I'll show you it anyway 🙂

[Birdofparadise8]

I only tested positive on Monday @amber22 

I'm sure you'll do great. Are you going with friends?

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 sorry I haven't been around as much lately.

You mentioned you're waiting on a response to an email. Have you got a reply yet?
Rejection is hard, it's the one thing I struggle with. My psych told me it stems from my parents' divorce, me feeling like my dad didn't want me and all my life I have not been able to deal with rejection in a healthy way. 

Nobody likes being rejected and it's normal to feel bad if the outcome we get isn't what we want or need.

I wish I could offer a solution or a way to make you feel better but all I can tell you is that if you are rejected, let yourself grieve and go through the healing process. It does get better but it takes time.

Hugs x

[Birdofparadise8]

Hi @ENKELI 

All good; I'm assuming you're busy with the job hunting or family stuff. I will find out about the diabetes job on Friday, I hope. 

Yeah, I did. It's fine, no rejection yet, but just thinking I won't be allowed on there for a minute made me break down crying. It's only for specific things, and if I do something wrong, I get banned for a bit, and it hurts so much. 

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 it doesn't help when you're not feeling well either. I know I am always hyper sensitive when I'm sick.

Glad you didn't get rejected. 

For so long I never said a word and was walked all over, now if I voice my opinion I get shut down and bullied. I get so confused that I doubt myself and the negative thoughts start coming. 
My anxiety is really high for some reason at the moment too.

Are you feeling any better today?