Not Coping

[Birdofparadise8]

I kind of want to cry. I'm not sure why. We talked about granny, the dreams and about me being startled @Blackbird11 

[Birdofparadise8]

Hey @bartart23 

[Blackbird11]

Have you got a strategies for Monday? For like if things get overwhelming? Do you have safe people in the family dynamic to go to?

It will be hard tomorrow, I hope you have support with you. I sometimes feel odd after a session,  self-care is so important @Birdofparadise8.

I had a late notice cancellation for work. No work now until boxing day. We have an international guest staying with us over the holiday season,  so will be spending time with them.

[Birdofparadise8]

No not really people get anxious I'd we are not all around. It would be hard to get five minutes alone. @Blackbird11 

No I don't. My parents aren't an option. 

My aunt and uncle are in Hobart as well but they won't be free. I'm also going out for dinner that night with my dads side of the family for Christmas its so chaotic. 

I think I'm just reliseing how stressful this all will be. I also have a family thing on Saturday for my pops, cousin and aunts birthday. So much masking. Gosh I need to stop thinking I'm starting to freak out now. Then there is new years when everyone will be like yay a new year and I'll be like yay another year where I have to fight to stay alive. Sorry now I'm ranting. 

[bartart23]

Hey @Birdofparadise8 👋 

[Birdofparadise8]

What have you done today, @bartart23?

[Blackbird11]

Your feelings are valid @Birdofparadise8, it sounds like it will be challenging for you. You might need to have a rituals before you get up or before you go to bed.

 

[Birdofparadise8]

Hmm, what would you suggest @Blackbird11?

I don't have a ritual. 

[bartart23]

Hi @Birdofparadise8  I am recovering from last night not (harm or suicide)   I am seeing a friend today at 4 to pick food shopping and then lock myself away and listen to music or chat to sane or you / anyone 

[Birdofparadise8]

I'll be around, but I will be getting ready to go to the airport soon. Maybe 4:45 pm. It's nearly 2:00 pm here @bartart23