My Mosaic

[Emelia8]

Can I sit with you both too @Bow @Anastasia ? 💝

I just made a cuppa, and treating myself to a slice of coconut buttercake. A storm is brewing here, thunder rumbling away ominously and its very humid and sticky. Light rain starting now too. Hope no wind.

@Eve7 @Shaz51 would you like to join us for u cuppa too? ☕ I have plenty of cake. 🍰

Emelia 🌸

[Otter]

Hi Bow,

Have seen its a really tricky day and you are grappling with SI, here to support your with our whole community. Just checking in with you, can you let us know that you are safe this afternoon? Are you able to give a preferred support a call today to have a chat (could be a crisis service or other contact)?

Hope you are well and wishing the very best,

Otter

[Eve7]

I am having a cuppa in one of those plastic hospital mugs @Emelia8 and S1 brought me in some chocolate so I have a piece for everyone.

Lots of care for you @Bow today. Being in my own room in the cardiac unit means I can use my devices all day long so now I'm on the surface pro.

Lots of love @Anastasia 

💛💚

[Anastasia]

Thank you for the chocolate @Eve7 🙏

My son is on his way over to see me. That has made my week ❣️

I hope your room is comfortable 🤞

Some flowers for you in my favourite shades...

[Bow]

I'm sorry not ok. I just asked for some prn. I hate bloody asking for it. The shame. And then Mum wants to know what is wrong. I hate all of this. I doubt this little pill is going to quiet inside. 

im going to log off not safe to be here 

[Anastasia]

Really feel for you @Bow I'm so sorry.

I can understand how frustrating it is that the decisions in your life are not your own. Please stay safe sweetheart. We all care for you very much ❤️

[Shaz51]

Hugs @Bow ❤❤

Hello @Anastasia , @Eve7 , @Emelia8 , @Otter 

Chocolate and a cuppa sounds lovely 

[Anastasia]

@Bow 👀❣️

[Bow]

My dietitian emailed me this morning. She sent through the nourishment plan that she put together for me. She also said that she seen how challenging the weekend was for me and said that it was completely understandable as we are having to do some really hard things to keep my medically stable. 

i restricted badly over the weekend and have continued to do so today. It's all too overwhelming.  What happens when I can't meet the plan?

I am still not sleeping well. I feel really disappointed that the new meds aren't making the nightmares go away. I know she said that she would increase the dose, but that is 3 weeks away and that feels like a really long time when I am feeling the way that I am. 

I see my psychologist again tomorrow. I am again really anxious about that appointment. 

And to add to everything else that I am trying to navigate and deal with, centrelink have decided now is the perfect time for me to start looking for work. I am in no state to work. I can't even do the 4hrs for my church that I am suppose to do. I can't even do the study that I started. And I can barely manage my day to day things. Just the added stress that I need. 

[Emelia8]

@Bow 💝😔