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23-09-2021 03:36 PM - edited 23-09-2021 03:53 PM
23-09-2021 03:36 PM - edited 23-09-2021 03:53 PM
I'm not looking after myself again
I'm writing this in the hope that I will start looking after myself again.
I have gone back into not looking after myself. I'm not sure why or how it happened. I don't remember the last time I had a shower and cleaned my teeth. I think it was last Tuesday.
I'm not eating properly or drinking enough water.
I was supposed to have an appointment with my therapist this week but I'm not sure when it was supposed to be and it didn't happen because she often forgets to call me.
I'm waiting for night time because that's usually when I feel better. The neighbourhood children are so loud and annoying.
I'm in a dark, negative space but I'm not having suicidal thoughts.
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23-09-2021 04:21 PM
23-09-2021 04:21 PM
Re: I'm not looking after myself again
I'm listening to my audio book by Thich Nhat Hanh to see if that will help. It's called Peace Is Every Step.
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23-09-2021 04:30 PM - edited 23-09-2021 04:31 PM
23-09-2021 04:30 PM - edited 23-09-2021 04:31 PM
Re: I'm not looking after myself again
@Arizona That sounds like a really good plan, you've mentioned how useful his writing has been to you.
We're here sititng with you
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23-09-2021 07:22 PM - edited 23-09-2021 07:25 PM
23-09-2021 07:22 PM - edited 23-09-2021 07:25 PM
Re: I'm not looking after myself again
Thank you @pamplemousse ❤
I listened to my audio book but I found it hard to concentrate because my thoughts were so intrusive. So I did two 10 minute semi guided meditations and I definitely feel calmer.
I will do this practice every day at 7pm.
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23-09-2021 07:57 PM - edited 23-09-2021 08:07 PM
23-09-2021 07:57 PM - edited 23-09-2021 08:07 PM
Re: I'm not looking after myself again
I'm making a tuna, bean and rice salad for dinner. I will also make a basil vinaigrette.
I have had 2 glasses of water.
I have to go to the supermarket to get olive oil, green beans and basil.
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23-09-2021 11:22 PM - edited 24-09-2021 01:30 AM
23-09-2021 11:22 PM - edited 24-09-2021 01:30 AM
Re: I'm not looking after myself again
I went to the supermarket and did some shopping.
I made dinner.
I had a shower and washed my hair.
I cleaned my teeth.
I gave my hair a really good brush.
I drank some more water.
I took my antidepressants.
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24-09-2021 09:26 AM
24-09-2021 09:26 AM
Re: I'm not looking after myself again
Your list of achievements yesterday @Arizona is really good.
I hope you're travelling ok today.
Have you heard the saying 'bird by bird'? It's from a book of that name by Anne Lamott ... As a child, Lamott's brother was once overwhelmed by a huge school project on birds. His father's simple yet profound advice was to take it “bird by bird,” or one small step at a time.
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24-09-2021 10:32 AM
24-09-2021 10:32 AM
Re: I'm not looking after myself again
Hi @Arizona
Good to see you did many things yesterday.
Go easy on yourself and take it day by day, moment by moment.
The meditation sounds great!
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24-09-2021 02:48 PM
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