Feeling lost and depressed

[Fluttershy1]

Hey all, 

I keep losing myself, I recently lost a family member to cancer and had the funeral and have been struggling for a few weeks while grieving and dealing with a few other things in my life, 

I just don’t know how to help myself while im stuck in this loop. I have a lot of other stuff on my plate that I’m trying to manage and was just trying to find a space to where I can express it. 

im safe 

[ClockFace]

@Fluttershy1 

I hope this is ok to recommend another service but there is a site griefline.org.au. They also have a helpline 8-8 M-F. Ive been using them to help with the grief of finding my sister when she attempted suicide last time. 

I would also say that calling SANE when open is a great idea, they deal with complex stuff a lot, Ive certainly tested that out. 

Depending on where you live there may be regional services as well. In lou of SANE today I rang Regional Access which is SA regional support and the lady I spoke to was fantastic.

Ive never lost anyone close to me so Im not going to comment on that other than to say it must be incredibly tough. Finding my sister unresponsive has messed me up hard and she survived so you pain is very valid

[Fluttershy1]

Hey @ClockFace - 

thank you for your suggestions, I have been reaching out lately to SANE but it being a public holiday they are closed. So I’m using distraction techniques like craft wise and trying to deal with past ptsd flashbacks. 

not doing well mentally aswell at the moment. 

everything is getting to me a lot more. 

having BPD, EUPD, Anxiety, Depression,

C-PTSD, DID, Panic and yeah a lot of other stuff, also having health conditions wasn’t good. 

I’m safe 

[Fluttershy1]

@TideisTurning @hanami @amber22 @Former-Member @tyme @Paperdaisy @FloatingFeather and any other peer workers - do you have any good other strategies that could help me through this time

[Kyle1]

Do you have anybody with you tonight, @Fluttershy1 ?

[Fluttershy1]

@Kyle1 - I do, but I don’t really talk about stuff with them for reasons

[Kyle1]

Grief is like being lost in a blizzard! ...

It's beyond saddening. It's scary, too - when you can't just turn it off... 

@Fluttershy1 how are your rabbits? Are they still with you? 

[Fluttershy1]

@Kyle1 - it is like a bilzzard, 

I still have them, they are very cute. 

im just feeling flat and down tonight 😭

[Kyle1]

Yeah... I've been like that a lot of today, too.

A lot of the last 6 months, actually... it's so darn tiresome and maddening, isn't it?

@Fluttershy1 have you been up for anything today? Like, did you go out somewhere? Anything happening tomorrow? ...

[Fluttershy1]

@Kyle1 - it’s very tiring, I’m feeling overwhelmed at the moment my brother is pressuring me to do something when I don’t want to. 

I’ve been playing on my switch and making Pom poms. I just wanna hide