Living with Ourselves

[Sophia1]

@outlander 

you mentioned dealing with different diagnoses.

Do you want to talk about dealing with this and how you are managing.

I know that we have not spoken for some time now and just because I am here now in this moment asking does not justify or come with any expectations of you opening up to me.

I am here now still caring about you as I did in the past.

I have just been away for a while as I really was struggling with all of what life decided to pile on top of me along with what I had already been trying to cope with.

I am no longer sure of your family situation and do not want to ask anything as I do not want to offend or upset you.

💜

[outlander]

i know you care @Sophia1 ive never doubted that

has the challanges eased abit for you? would it help to talk about how your coping atm or anything thats causing you worry?

well in the last few months ive been diagnosed with 2 permanently damaged nerves in face (from the dental extractions i had) i also have nerve damage in my neck and part of my back muscle but no confirmed name as i dont really want to go through so much testing for that. i also had to undergo some testing as i was quite unwell which turns out im allergic to quite a few things and still might be more (waiting to see allergenist) and have been seing a gynae for pcos and endo diagnosis/treatments etc so i can get diagnoses.

[Sophia1]

Thank you @HenryX 

Yes I have to say that somewhere in the back of my mine I remember Tuesdays being the special event, or guest speaker, or some other title.

As I mentioned, I only came across it by chance.

I was actually quite pleased with myself because I read other information on the same page that has also changed.

I had a fleeting moment of ooh I am feeling better; my confused mind is starting to clear and I have discovered something that I am interested in.

Hmm..........

Perhaps I should have stopped there and just "enjoyed the moment" as they say.

Seriously, computers and I are not friends. That is reality.

I might suggest that they have a section where we can write letters, what do you think @HenryX @Emelia8 @outlander @Anastasia @Adge @TAB @Appleblossom @Exoplanet @Margherita @Zoe7  @oceangirl @Former-Member @Clawde @MDT (have you changed your user name? or is it me?) @Maggie @BlueBay @Owlunar    ?

I might start a thread and see if anyone writes back...........

[TAB]

Sounds like an idea @Sophia1  Hi and hope you are okay

[Anastasia]

@Sophia1 🤗🙏

[Appleblossom]

@Sophia1 

Yep @The_Hams is "guess who's" new user name.

Replying to a few posts back ...

loved that you wrote

thinking should be banned.  

Words can get us out of thorny situations and get us into them.

I am more verbal than visual but try and consiously balance it out and post art

cos it is one of the best ways to calm my farm ... so to speak ...

Grapes are Great

You tagged me on the other thread about arial photos.  It is one of the things that is amazing about the internet and satellites and all that ....

when I was in year 12 at night school I did a science project where I needed to go to special govt office and purchase B&W arial photos over 50 years

it really gave me an insight about .... "What the sky saw"

Good to see you

[Sophia1]

Dear @outlander 

Thank you for offering to listen to latest issues, past , present, ongoing. I actually am in time out mode. Stepping away tonight, knowing that they are quite safe and will still be there tomorrow.

My goodness nerve damage from dental extractions. Are the dental practice listening and offering assistance?

Neck? connection with dental extraction?

Back muscle also. Is that in the area near your neck?

I hope that you have someone assisting you in obtaining detailed information and answers.

Have you any ideas yourself? in particular to neck and back?

Allergies can be troublesome also. I have none myself. My younger son does.

I also had endo issues along with twin. We both had children.

I had a quick read as I had not heard of pcos; probably not known of when I was young. I would say that pain was extreme for long periods of time and cycle more often 4-5 weekly due to length of each cycle.

Waiting for specialist appointments, diagnoses and so on can be more stressful than conditions themselves.

I just want to say please do not focus on the worst and do not ask doctor google.

Take care

I will try to visit you more often. If I don't this does not mean that I am not thinking of you.

love Sophia 💜

[Sophia1]

love that photograph @Appleblossom 

That is definitely something that would hang on one of my walls.

I refer to portraits like these as story tellers across the years.

Beautiful.

You certainly led a different life to me where I travelled a lot at a young age. 

A very interesting project to research arial photographs over a 50 year period.

Are they displayed in a museum somewhere or published in a book that you know of?

I seem to have visual and verbal. When I cannot find something or husband asks as he never looks himself, I go back into the visual part of my mind and can see where last used or placed. Fascinating really.

Good to talk to you also @Appleblossom 

I have read over some of your responses over the years since we first met 5 or 6 years ago and can see that you have much more self-belief and pride. This pleases me greatly as I am on a very similar journey. I just need to get out of the dissociating, foggy, confused states of mind.

This will come.

I have been working on this at the same time that life (as it does) has been throwing other challenges in my way.

I am making progress.

I shall look out for you

Sophia 💜

[Zoe7]

I think that thread would be great to start @Sophia1 Tag me in it when you do 

[Sophia1]

Hello @Emelia8 

You have not been far from my mind.

Can I talk to you briefly here or would you prefer on another thread which I can never remember the name of?

Perhaps you might also only want to acknowledge your presence and that you have read my words which is lovely in itself.

Words are hard to come by at times like these.

I also cannot remember your family situation and am hoping that you are all there for each other in ways that you all choose.

I am here silently, even though not verbally.

No essays to have to plod through.

I hope that you have some special moments in the garden, a special area where you can go and let go of your breath and just be. Sounds simple but can be far from.

I am going to look for a garden setting to share with you. You can if you want to look at the setting and imagine that all of your friends on here are dropping in to give you a hug, let you know how much you mean to us and that we care about how you are.