Coming to terms with reality

[eudemonism]

@Sophia1 yea. I think I'm just reflecting on what I've been through. And am finally able to talk about it. And look at the whole ordeal in a rational way.

I have quite a bit of animosity toward the system and toward professionals. As they are controlling me. And as they are supposed to be there to help. And there is definite differences between how they see things and how I see things.

It's been dark, dreary and gloomy here. For about five days now. Some sunshine is apparently on the way. I have an inspection coming up in a few days time. So will need some motivation to do some cleaning.

The system and the professionals. See me as one thing. Mentally ill. Needing medication. And needing help. It's how the system works. It frustrates me big time.

[Sophia1]

Hello @eudemonism

Keeping up with house cleaning is hard enough with cold weather..

when we are struggling with our mind stuff nigh impossible..

inspections whilst a pain get you moving..you know that you have to do it..

then once over..enjoy feeling of clean tidy home..

how is your cooking at the moment? Making nice hearty casseroles? Soups?

curries with rice are always yummy in cooler weather..I cook beef or chicken with vegetables in the slow cooker and serve with brown rice..

As for the system...try to tell yourself what is important is how you see yourself...

Eude can tell himself that he has analysed everything over and over..now is time to look at good side..

make a list of everything that you have achieved..

heaps..

let me know what you come up with..

[eudemonism]

@Sophia1 I'm just glad to get through each day and too be able too call each day half decent. Each day is a case of 'do or die.'

That's a good meal idea I might use it sometime. Its hard preparing food and cooking for one. Really hard.

I've been in the mhs and taking medication for 13 years now. Since the age of 19 it has become a burden.

Eude

[Sophia1]

@eudemonism

Do you have a slow cooker?

[eudemonism]

@Sophia1 no slow cooker

[Sophia1]

@eudemonism

would you like to know how?

Make more..divide into one meal portions and freeze.

[Sophia1]

Hello @eudemonism

forget about the cooking idea if not up to it...do hope that you are eating well though..

hoping that something makes you smile......

take care

[Bunniekins]

@eudemonism 'if it could go wrong it did go wrong. '  Truer words were never spoken of me ... for quite sometime eudemonism ... you have to however stop beating yourself up about this. You are a kind and sensitive person who feels alot of guilt over what his illness has done to him. No one is perfect we all make mistakes and even if the world cannot forgive you you must forgive yourself as it is not your fault.

[eudemonism]

Yea @Bunniekins I was just talking about it, acknowledging it, and expressing my thoughts and feelings surrounding it. More than a lot of people do... Some just let it silently eat away at them or develop negative coping mechanisms... Or even worse... Don't even acknowledge it...

@Sophia1 food is my only source of comfort some days. I do alright for myself.

[Bunniekins]

@eudemonismYou are such a nice and funny person eudemonism 🙂 I will keep telling you this until  you truly believe it 🙂