Lived Experience Forum

[steveaustin]

Hello,

I feel myself as a person again. Its gradual, but here and there im feeling like "me", again. To put it simply, when I dont feel like me, I still do useful stuff, e.g cleaning, or spending time with mom. But its mechanical, and based on a random idea about what a good person should do. When I was in that non-me state, feeling disconnected, I was tempted to reach out to an old friend, because thats what loyal friends do. But he was really rude, and manipulative to me.

I don't feel that way anymore. I watched Steven Universe tonight and I legit laughed, and enjoyed it. It was a small moment of joy. It made me think "hey, I might do a bit of work tomorrow if it means I get Steven Universe as a reward". I feel so tired sometimes of being depressed, and now that im on Week 3, Day 2 of taking anti-depressants im glad that something is happening 🙂

I cancelled an event I was organising last week, bit of a bummer but also good for my health in the long-term. 

Im happy with my recent decisions.

[Appleblossom]

Good to hear @steveaustin 

Finding balance between being loyal and submitting to toxic behaviour is huge. Struggling with that myself.

For a long time I was too downhearted to ever choose a comedy to watch, but in last few months I have been watching heaps.  I only watch shows or movies at night, but having a light hearted approach is a good balance to all my seriousness.  Watching NZ show Educators atm.

Cheers Apple